Un pied dans ma bouche

Des fois j’écris et partage les choses d’un jet, sans filtrer ni réfléchir. Des fois j’oublie qu’y a des gens qui lisent et que sans contexte, ça peut porter à confusion.
Je me permets de revenir sur un contexte.
Pendant 2 ans j’ai canalisé, j’ai travaillé en énergie, j’ai fait des readings. J’ai été coaché et j’ai aussi coaché d’autres. Principalement parce que je me suis fait dire à maintes reprise « you learn by teaching ». Et c’est vrai. En enseignant on n’a pas le choix d’intégrer, d’organiser et distiller une info. On prend le bulk d’un domaine et on en cherche l’essence. Et ça adonne que je constate (d’après les commentaires des gens qui m’écoutent parler sur différents sujets depuis 10 ans) que j’ai un certain talent pour la vulgarisation. En plus de ça, J’AIME enseigner.
La dernière année et quelques a été une galère. J’ai à peu près tout perdu. Ma famille, mes professeurs, mes guides, ma business, plusieurs amis. J’ai été assez malade aussi. Puis dépressive, voir suicidaire pour près de 6 mois. J’ai cessé le travail spirituel autre que sur moi-même. Et dans la nuit noire de l’âme sont venues des réflexions, des constatations et des remises en question. Les pelures de l’oignon se sont pelées pour me mettre à nu et détruire l’égo spirituel que j’avais bâti. Et de la ont émergés d’autres systèmes de supports, d’autres outils et d’autres compréhensions, pas toujours disponibles dans les livres ou accessibles facilement.
Dans mon refus de travailler sur les gens, j’ai encore un petit quelque chose à partager. Dans mon travail sur moi des derniers mois j’ai trouvé quelques « gems », en outils et « insights » que j’aimerais partager. Surtout parce que j’aurais vraiment aimé que quelqu’un les partage avec moi avant que je pelte mon trou. Ou pendant. Anyways. J’aime penser que si j’ai marché dans le noir toute seule c’est que c’est peut-être parce que j’ai un potentiel d’aider à éclairer un bout de chemin pour quelqu’un d’autre. Peut-être.
Pour une « dernière » fois (pas dans l’absolu là mais disons que c’est un peu mon lastcall sur la scène spirituelle avant de complètement lâcher prise), je vous présente un workshop, fruit de ma précieuse épreuve, très épuré et simple en fait mais à mon humble avis puissant, très centrés sur VOUS parce que vraiment ce que j’ai compris récemment c’est que j’ai tous les pouvoir en MOI. Et j’aime ça empowerer les gens à LEUR vérité. Y a rien qui me fait tripper autant que de voir d’autre s’allumer quand ils réalisent leur propre potentiel.
Alors merci aux petits anges qui sont venu me reprendre dans mon élan. J’ai réfléchi et peaufiné pour vous offrir le « layout » du cours que j’ai envie de donner présentement. Pour partager ET aussi pour moi, pour m’aider à intégrer mes acquis.
Les détails du workshop : 
Mon autre blog / journal, plutôt autobiographique et self-thérapeutique : 

Reality and the meaning of life

This may not come as ground breaking insights but I need to write it down in order to organize my thoughts. After my latest spiritual experiences I fell (and felt) a little out of purpose. Not in a desperate way as it would before, but more with a sense of where my place is and not wanting to take part in any organization schemes, Galactic or otherwise. I know I am still on the fringe of the Galactic Federation but more as a punctual resource person than an active member.

The multidimensional perception of consciousness already brought me to the realization there is no polarity. We are all actors cast in the roles of our lives, incarnation after incarnation, avatars to larger consciousness at play, alternating one “side” or the other (there really is no sides but it makes sense from our perspective). This planet is little more than a stage to solve and enact dimensional and galactic problematics of various conscious beings and allow them to ascend (remember maze runner?).

What is really ascension and why does it matter? Put simply, it’s the goal of each levels of the reality game. Imagine the conscious universe (including this dimension and every other) as a giant computer operated system. God consciousness being the programmer, “sacred” geometry and fractal patterns being the code language, archangels/aeoning beings being frameworks in which realities are created, higher dimensional realms being programs/applications and our lower realms being the files that are being worked on. (E.g. Texts or image files). The god/programmer is simply trying to complete as many work files as possible and integrate them in its vast database.

In this perspective, every experience matters. Whatever we do, is of equal value in God’s eye. The goal is to solve different puzzles by enacting different dynamics and ultimately bringing harmony and coherence to systems. Each system is identified as a specific frequency bands (think radio station) but are also completely interdependent and acting together in solving a larger picture (think fractal). Time doesn’t exist either, only layered sequences of information warping and folding onto themselves in loops like weird circular formulas, until we figure how to debug it.

How does this translate to our human experience and how do we find “purpose”? Because let’s be honest: to come to realization that nothing we perceive is real, that we live in a constructed matrix where there is actually no moral sense of right of wrong and there is no way to escape it not even death (because dying is no exit, only a change of state and anything left “undone” has to be repeated), is not especially hearth warming.
Since once we awake within this matrix we are not going anywhere (well we go tons of places with our multidimensional perception for a while but the point is that ultimately we still have to operate in these bodies), we still need to cope with the feeling of being trapped in physicality. For some, after major spiritual awakening, existential nihilism can be crushing and even down right maddening.

The idea is bring about this harmony and coherence to everyday life. Because when we bring harmony to “the reality system”, we actually find harmony within (and vice versa). If we look into Buddhist philosophy, we find the same truth: there is no sense of good or bad, just a core desire to end suffering. Because real or not, suffering (and pain) is the one constant of physical incarnation, especially for human beings.

If273f720c49b6092deab7e1b34066180d we consider reality to be constructed as a spiral (hello Fibonacci) the way we go about problem solving starts to make sense. Weather is on the small scale of day to day life or the large scale of reincarnation, have you ever noticed how when we think we’ve “solved” something in our lives it suddenly comes back as a sort of “test”, until it’s definitely integrated? Same goes around of every layer of existence and in this spiral of evolution we works out blocks and karma (Saṅkhāra) as individuals, as a specie, as a planet, etc.

The other constant is change. In the construct of this matrix we are in, no matter the scale we witness constant flow and movement, graciously unfolding patterns within patterns (look at the dance of galaxies). When we deeply understand that nothing is ever static and nothing is “real”, the notion of “wanting” is transformed. We therefore learn that there is no point in holding on to anything, whether its objects, people or situations. We circle back to the Buddhist concept of desire and attachment. In order to attain true happiness (harmony) we ought to free of both.

When we see things in this fractal way, we understand we are indeed created in God’s image. Therefore, as its infinite creative power dwells inside of me, I am more than ever interested in spanning little programs of my own to alter reality and make this world a better place to exist in. Here’s how:

Many studies in recent years show how thought patterns and especially emotions bring harmony to a system (for instance Masaru Emoto experiment). Vibrations also have this property: a rhythmic breathing brings about cardiac coherence and in turn a sense of calm inner peace, tribal drumming will synchronize brainwaves and bring about a state of trance, etc. A coherent system (with a steady vibration) will harmonize its surrounding in a reciprocal manner. This bring my second point that the single and most powerful way we can impact the world is by first experiencing true harmony and coherence within ourselves. By looking inside and observe our own state of discordance, unhappiness and chaos, we soon start to feel empathy for every other being suffering as well. After a while we begin to feel compassionate to everyone (Mettā), even those who harmed us and are hurting the world as a result of their own unhappiness. This deep realization is the true purpose of meditation and contemplation. Love is ultimate vibrational coherence and compassion is love in action.


Another good point is to stop worrying about everyone else’s process and how spiritual or not they are and instead concentrate to create a space of acceptance free of judgement to let people be what they are, walk their own path and work their own process. The truth is that we cannot fix others. Individual ascension (or collectively working at ascending individually) is the “reptilian” way I am seeing now in a world resisting transition to a more feminine, organic paradigm. It just seems like the logical and most effective way to go at it at least for the time being.

If the goal of existence is harmony, how come there is so much shit going on these days? The answer is: to stir things up so order can emerge out of chaos. When a system is stagnant or taking a slope to self-destruction, one way to try to alter this course of event it to insert variables and try to alter the unfolding pattern. I believe that this is what the different Galactic factions at play are trying to manifest in their comprehension of how things work down here, more or less effectively. But ultimately we, as individuals, have the ultimate power of playing out this reality by making choices within ourselves. Worrying and fighting is actually very counterproductive in the desire to play out a harmonious (i am not going to say positive) outcome in coherently solving this reality puzzle and moving up to the next (ascending). Loving, accepting, laughing and be happy are the only things that actually make a difference. So I am going to repeat it once more: nothing matters in this life more than the quest of deep self-knowing because understanding oneself is understanding the universe. Then changing yourself is changing the world.


White and red plague

October 6, 2016

Last night I slept 11 hours which is not typical for me. I had many dreams. One I remember is looking for ancient alchemy books in a library. Then leaving without paying/registering me taking the books. Later I was practicing telekinesis with a grocery cart and I was getting pretty good at it. I also remember teaching ascension principles to a small group of individuals but what I recall most is a scene out of a horror movie where I was trying to stop “bad witches” from doing something evil with some substances but last second the brew exploded right in my face. I was feeling ok so a bit relieved that “nothing happened” apart from the destroyed room around me but then, looking at my reflection in a close by mirror, I say myself with no hair, a flaky skin white like chalk, spotted in bright red blisters and the inside of my eyes entirely burned. I wasn’t scared because it didn’t hurt at all and could see perfectly fine. Usually in my dreams I can feel everything especially pain. But now I was just closely looking at myself, taking in every grim details with great realism, wondering what happened to me and what will ensue.

When I woke up my ears were (and still are) toning with crazy frequencies like there is no tomorrow. It’s usually a symptom I get at night and intermittently but it’s been very active the last few days, louder than it ever been. I went for my morning shower. I usually take this moment to connect to my subconscious/inner child for guidance for the day. I’m hosting her in a huge inner world like a playing field with all the stuff she loves and usually find her in different places enjoying different activities. This morning she was frantically looking through books in her library, tomes scattered on the floor and she was not paying attention to me at all. She was busy and intensely frowning but i couldn’t exactly feel fear or actual urgency, just deep concentration. She was working hard. I scanned the rest of her land to see if there was something there to set her in that mood and to my surprise there was a huge tree sticking out of the middle of her forest. A big tall snow white and red tree. I knew right away it was a sick tree. A plagued tree. And that little Kindrana was looking for what to do about it.

Then, pulled out of my trance, I felt a presence in the house. It’s not something typical these days because of the high protection devices installed around it. Pretty much nothing of astral vibration can enter unless invited so I emerged from my inner connection to focus on the space beneath the shower’s curtain and see who/what was there. It was a large draconian male standing right beside me. I did my usual plea of “in the name of Jesus Christ if you don’t serve the light I bid you to leave” but it didn’t care and stayed. I could tell that my HS was recognizing him as family and we started chatting. He’s one in charge of my division of the starship crew and he was there to brief me on assignment. I clearly heard the word “plague” and invited me to bilocate on the ship. Our ship is slightly further then the main body of the GF star fleet. Through the window I could see them from above and to the right, assembled together a good distance above 5D Earth. Around me a few members of my crew along with my superior. He was wearing a graded GF military suit and me a typical Melchizedek priest robe. Lying on a table in front of me was the elongated blue body of a 5D Arcturian but it looked so DENSE and sick and clammy and colorless. I looked at the draconian dude asking him telepathically “WTF brother. How is this possible”. (Yeah I allow myself to be familiar with authority even up there because it simply is my personality and they know I love everyone and do a good job although I don’t give a fuck about ranks and titles)

He was taking my hands and directing them on top of the small almost shrunk body of the Arcturian in order for me to read his field and maybe provide healing. As I was doing so my Drac friend explained to me that he was sick because he maintained himself in too low frequencies to interact with his humanly incarnated extensions for too long. Doing so he was progressively lowering his frequency so low that he was becoming physical enough to experience fatigue and sickness and maybe eventually die before his time (in higher frequencies you can chose when to let go of a specific persona and re-cycle your energy). It’s a problem because an increasing number of envoys are starting to experience the same state. Earth experience is dragging and should have shifted to the 5th frequency a while ago but we’ve maintained the lower frequency grid active for longer so more parcels can ascend in their bodies. But this situation starting to have adverse side effects. Me in disbelief:

  • Well isn’t all experience of value? Weather the Earth experiment succeeds or not to the GF expectations it’s still a valid experiment conclusion in the eye of the higher frequency realms? Why are these guys so desperate they would make themselves sick for parcels that as “meant” to suffer and die?”

He answered:

  • Drac : Yes but if this experiment fails or do not succeed in a good enough ratio another experiment will be set up and, like you said yourself, going throught at early stages of density is highly uncomfortable and we would like to avoid that.
  • Kindrana: Ok so what’s up with that?
  • D: Some factions have already hatched a plan to speed up the awakening process on Earth by spreading a plague attacking dormant genes of the human race. Only activated genes are immune to the disease and DNA recoding will be the only way to heal and save one’s life. There will be no choice but to ascend and fast.
  • K: Wow that’s a fucking grim and cruel way to kick people in the butt. I’m really not sure how I feel about that plan. I’m having moral concerns about consciously imposing this much suffering on humans
  • D: If not this way, humans will suffer other kinds of horrible massive deaths sooner rather than later but without a chance to make it to the next frequency and those soul aspects will have to start the process all over again. We’re not the ones carrying out this plan but there’s nothing to do to stop it now.

He showed me a holographic map of the planet with 3 expending radius centered on different points of the planet. I understood it was ground 0 for the “virus” to be almost simultaneously spread from. One being North-West of Africa, Russia and north Eastern South-America (or Central America I’m not sure).

  • K: Ok so why are you telling me this and what am I supposed to do?
  • D: Just wait and stay posted. Be ready. You’re stepping into your true mission now which will be to help heal many and teach many more how to heal themselves. It’ll all taken care of and your path is orchestrated to unfold in a way that leaves no space for missteps. You’ll be at the forefront of healing crew and your work and position is crucial. There’s nothing to do in the immediate but to enjoy quiet times.

I was standing at the feet of the sick Arcturian, sending him gentle energy healing when I opened my eyes, reflecting on how my experience of so much apocalyptic worlds are maybe about to come into play.


I am Kindrana Melchizedek

Ever since my Kundalini awakening 5 years ago, I have been increasingly struggling with finding a sense of Self and had experienced very slippery identity as memories of past lives started to pile on each other in most recent years. I launched this blog when I started channeling in order to track progress and stories as well as to try to make sense of it all. In parallel I came across valuable teachers such as Suzanne Lie, Jelaila Starr, David Watson and Daniela Rambaldini, as well as co-travelers on the path such as my friends Mylène, Nadia, Catherine and Anne (to name just a few), and topped by the encounter of my now life partner Matthew (all of which I am aware to know in other realms and other times as well). For that I am forever grateful. Nevertheless, my not knowing of WHO (the fuck) I AM was still troubling and in an effort to reconcile my multidimensional Self, as many know, I completely turned my life around. For almost a year I fell back in survival mode and for the past 6 months nothing was seemingly moving.

9 weeks ago I got fed up with floating in the void and I decided to try to make a “deal” with my spirit guides. If they were expecting me to lead and teach or whatever task they wanted me to do, I wanted support, help and clear guidance to move forward and make things happen. I laid down the conditions upon which I was committing to go on, otherwise I would quit channeling altogether and settle on living a simple life with my home tattoo studio and my son.

Let img_4301me tell you that the second I reached out to state my resolve, spirit instantly stepped in. I guess they were not disposed to let me go so easily. The first voice I heard was of Goddess Ishtar and the sentence “I am Naga”. Being already aware of my Reptilian heritage, I was not too shocked. From that point they asked me to adopt an open attitude commit to channel with them a little every day. At first I thought they meant I had to write for them on my blog everyday but I quickly realized the messages were of a more personal nature so I quit publishing quite rapidly.

Over the next few weeks I was led through a process of quick updates, comprised of channeled info, nightly traveling and dream work, books to read and people to meet. I got up to date with Annunaki history, a part of our galactic background I never been drawn to before (I believe I wasn’t ready for it anyway) and I circled back to the Nibiruan Council information about DNA recoding. I realized then that I had been stuck at level 6 for a good while and believe it or not, once “unblocked” I flew through the last stages at light speed. Major releases and challenges manifested and I was put face to face with some of my major fears along with situations triggering all sorts of emotional baggage to be transmuted, especially regarding guilt and shame. I even lost a few friends I held quite dear in the process.

Two weeks before the end or my 8 weeks “probation period” I even had a mini meltdown, digging deep in my childhood and sense of self-worth. I thank Matt for being there for me and knowing exactly how to support me through it. I had chosen to complete my evaluation period on 9/9/2016 (9) because numbers sounded cool and I was also in vacations, which sounded ideal to have free head space to reflect on the whole thing. Synchronistically enough, my friend Mylène spontaneously decided to visit us in Toronto. On top on not being in touch that often, she’s the one that really triggered major leaps for me when everything started with astral travelling 2-3 years ago. We were together when guides started to manifest and with her I learned energy healing and other interesting modalities. So the coincidence of having her present on that specific day was especially uncanny. We haven’t done work together in ages but, evidently, on 9/9/9 I was on the table with her leading the session. Although I had a sense I was pretty much done with recoding at that point but I honestly didn’t expect much.

Durinunnamedg the session I saw myself reborn from a dragon egg, on a spaceship, in a room surrounded with many luminescent symbols. After that in was welcomed by creatures I identified as being Alpha Draconian. Again, I didn’t think much of it on the spot since symbolic rebirth is a common visual triggered in energetic calibration but as I came back in the room I felt a strong and foreign sense of calm and stability like I haven’t felt in a while.

The next morning in the shower, my full oversoul consciousness got downloaded in my mind, complete with detailed identity and personality. It was so sudden and I felt so much like “someone” that I thought I had just experienced a Walk-in. But with some probing I understood it really was just a huge information packet opening up. Just like that, in an instant, everything about the past 5 years and actually about my WHOLE LIFE became clear and made so much sense to me. All the scattered bits of me, my oddly matched interests, my lack of gender identity, my crazy nightly dream adventures from early age, everything. It would be too long to relate everything in details now but all the pieces of my unraveled tapestry assembled on the morning of September 10, 2016. And today, for the first time I get to tell my own story.

As much as possible ill use vocabulary and time bases sequences that makes sense for us but keep in mind that many concepts cannot be expressed in human language, especially regarding the experience of multidimensionality, alien technologies and space time travel.

I am Kindrana Melchizedek, what you could call a Draconian priestess. Although this statement might make you recoil at first, I ask you to hear my story before you judge me.

Eons ago, I was born on a very distant planet on the outskirt of the Orion star system. This planet was a very small one with no name other than a sting of numbers, and not very hospitable for life. Its soil was red and its toxic atmosphere of a dirty purple color. This place was exploited as a mining outpost of a major Draconian colony and was mainly extracting gold as well as a small amount of other rare and precious metal not available on your planet, used to create highly technological circuitry. Life was not sustainable on this planet so we had to create pockets of breathable atmosphere where the workers and laboratories were established and individuals needed constant protections against the ambient radiations. Once in a while, a scout ship would come by and drop supplies and sometimes also workers. It was not possible for us to bread and reproduce in this place. Our eggs were too fragile to withstand the harsh environment and the colony would not invest on hatching facility for such a small outpost. Eggs were hatched on the bigger facility ships and then dispatched on the smaller colonies. But my story started differently. My egg was laid on the planet and when it was found (maybe ad and and a half after my mother had left me to die), it was already strangely discolored. By miracle, a scout ship unexpectedly came for supplies that day and since Draco’s eggs are quite precious (females only lay one egg and not very often) and every workers head counts, my egg that was still viable was thrown in with the others to be hatched on the closest facility ship. No one had very high expectations for me and if I was to make it functional enough, I would most likely make a simple mine worker at best. In my colony, damaged individuals were not allowed to live if were of no use for the group. Impaired hatchlings were simply disposed of, in a quick and what you’d call humane manner. When I hatched I was indeed smaller than the others but also of a strange blue gray color and one of my eye would not quite match the other but I was otherwise in good health. In the colony, a strict caste system was enforced and younglings were quickly evaluated in their specific talents and ability to be sorted through your equivalent of a school system. The strong and smart ones would become military. The able but not so smart one would become workers. The smart but not too strong ones would end up as various type of scholars. You can imagine I fell in the later category.

From a young age I set myself apart from my kins not only in looks but also in
intellect. It seemed my mind didn’t work quite as the others and I was showing a special 4ed0766cfd3d6c2906f39ae31414f640kind of creativity in problem solving and at figuring out new ways of doing things. What I was losing in popularity with my mates I would quickly gain in respect from my “teachers”. My strong suit was in the field of what you humans would consider alchemy. Part chemistry in the studies of metal and their properties, part “magic” in the taming of energy fields and molecular alteration. Before long I would conceptualize technologies you humans could not even begin to comprehend.

With me coming of age (at a stage of life you would consider being a very young adult) I was shipped back to my outpost as a trainee to take my place as a field scientist. Despite my natural talents, my lineage unknown and looks would not have been well received in the innermost colonies where I would have been treated as low bread and thus I would not have been able to occupy any position of importance. As years went by I quickly adjusted to the outpost’s dynamics. Understand that we were mainly pacific individuals as there was no one there to invade and fight with. Military presence was almost nonexistent and our lives were of pure scientific interest and hard labour. As I got older I took on increasing responsibilities and finally ended up in charge of the mining operations on the planet. By the end I was what you’d consider a middle age adult and was leading just under 60 Dracs working the field.

What actually happened I’ll never know, but my understanding is that political changes happened in the administration of the fleet and we were somewhat at war. Either our fleet was pushed further in the vicinity of the system or it was decided that our outpost was not worth the resources or trouble, but one day the scout ships stopped visiting altogether. As days dragged by we started to be increasingly agitated as food and the chemical supplies that were keeping us alive were not coming. Our stand lasted for a few planetary cycles (that would not make sense in Earth time.) and by the end only a handful of us remained. The others died of radiation poisoning and we were the last one waiting to die in the last atmosphere pocket we managed to preserve.

That’s when the Galactic Federation ship came. We were rescued and taken on board and we were healed and mended. Most of the crew of the ship were Arcturians and soon we were all dispatched to new quarters, according to our own specific background. Needless to say that as Draconians we were not the most heavily represented race on board of the mothership and as part of the Federation as a whole. Nevertheless I was received by a few of my kins, some renegade Melchizedeks that seemed a little fanatic to me with all their talk of integration and polarities. I could not make any sense of what there were saying and all I had ever known was “alchemy” and the powers of “alloys” and “circuitry”. This is where my personal ascension process began. I was both trained by the Melchizedeks in the ancient art of encryption and data relaying. Upon eons I made my way through the different decks of this multidimensional ship (to understand more about the ship, refer to Suzane lie’s book, Life on the mothership) and was eventually sent to study on Arcturus itself. By that time I was long done with my reptilian body and in higher dimensions I was able to take on any shape I liked. On Arcturus I sported the lean translucent blue bodies of the natives although my energetic signature never fooled anybody there: I was always the “oddity”, the “outsider”, the “special case”, in comparison to the multitude of 1621913_533390583425825_783382786_n1Pleiadian, Andromedan and Sirian souls streaming every day. I still managed to make dear friends on Arcturus during training, one of which, Mylene, was to play an important role in unlocking my memories and potentials later on in Karine’s incarnation.

I learned for the Master of Time how to incarnate in future and past timelines to heal, mend and alter matrices. During that time I incarnated and walked-in in countless apocalyptic timelines to try and change outcomes. At some point I have been assigned to develop this part of the universe in order to hold a new experiment in polarity integration. I had become what you could call a Reality Engineer. Through my training on Arcturus I also became very proficient with crystals and I was eventually sent to earth to create a brand new grid to hold 3fae92d32b877f90897c83708b148b62consciousness and encrypt it with the necessary data for this matrix to operate. I was already there for a long time when the Nibiruans came (the ones you call Annunaki). I am not sure how much the 5D Nibiruans knew about GF presence in this part of the Universe but we simply decided to let them play in the game. When they arrived I was both etherically incarnated in the aethers, monitoring energetic fluctuations on the grid and also as a physical serpent-like native of the planet (Nāga) of which I was a sort or high ranked “priestess” (for lack of a better term). In that form I did not retain my whole memories of higher dimensional incarnations but I was still quite versed in the knowledge of metal properties and the Nibiruans took interest in my abilities to alchemize gold. Although they still viewed us natives as somewhat “inferior” to them in our tribal ways, they still recognized the hold we had on this planet and the quickly managed to create 14079875_529250200599576_886645953850843807_ndifferent alliances with the local clans. I know I incarnated multiple times in the near surrounding of the Nibiruans and although these memories are still a bit fuzzy I know that the misuse of scalar technologies I’ve been working on contributed in the destruction of Maldek (actually I believe I created the very device that served its destruction, maybe in a subconscious attempt at revenge for being previously abandoned by my kind. Read more in “We are the Nibiruans”) and/or the disintegration of Mars atmosphere.

Nevertheless, the decision to let the Nibiruans play on Earth was not the best the GF has made, although it would have been hard to prevent since it was strictly programmed as a free will experiment. The GF then tried to counteract the Annunaki destructive tendencies by sending envoys through the 3d veil of amnesia in “lulus” bodies (the humans genetically altered by the Nibiruans) orchestrating their lives to accomplish certain tasks. The Nibiruans recklessness and immaturity went close to terminate our meticulously crafted matrix more than once and their tempering with genetics created multiple monstrosities that could very well have hindered humans genetic ability to evolve spiritually.

Since my birth planet was never really mine (and not too hospitable anyway) and Arcturus my foster home, being basically a glorified GF refugee, embracing its vision an mission, Earth is the only place that I truly ever felt home. I never was too fond of the humans themselves but I deeply connected with the core of Gaia and she welcomed me as her child, no matter which face I would take on next. It was my utmost desire to see Her thrive. When I incarnated as Marcus, last Grand Priest of Atlantis, I was replaying my own karma as Kindrana in attempt to heal the timeline and save humanity along with their ancestral knowledge. When I failed my heart broke in a million pieces. Still, I was able to preserve the Lemurian library in crystal capsules to be open upon the time of (re)ascension, 13 500 years later or so.

After the Fall I signed up to join Earth’s crew and try to clean up the mess. Incarnation after incarnation I infused part of me and my knowledge to multiple humans (consciousness shards) in order to return Earth to her former 5D state and give back their multidimensionality to mankind. Among other things I remember hiding some very important bits of knowledge in Egypt and using scalar technologies to build massive constructions around the world. Fun fact: I know that part of my knowledge and personality was imprinted on Leonardo Davinci incarnation blueprint.


Like I said before, I never was a huge human lover but more than anyone I learned to appreciate them for the value of their diversity and identity. Being an all-time rebel myself, forever lacking unity in community, my individuality was my most prized “possession”. I also understand that human’s wide range of emotions make them prime vehicle to learn and integrate polarity. I realize now that I didn’t just come to incarnate in this Now to heal the planet but also to heal myself. Being so different I always felt I had to work double to prove my worth. In my feeling isolated, serving others has always been my way to survive. I understand it’s a stigmata I imposed on myself in my continual quest for “redemption”. It is time for me to let go of my karma of sacrifice to finally free myself and allow me to create limitlessly.

For the fun of imaginative depictions, you could picture me as a mix of World of Warcraft races with the built of a female Orc, with a darker shade of olive green scaly skin. My legs are back bend and my tail brooches the floor, somewhat like the hind end of a Dranei but with strong reptile feet. My hands are agile and prehensile but you’d most likely find my claws intimidating. My face is set forward and I bear faun like horns, most like the Dranei but in a more lizard like fashion as my nose is very flat and large. My teeth are numerous and pointy, but I do not feature protruding tusks. My head it topped by a long ridge of dark red spines that would almost look like a Mohawk haircut to you. I enjoy simple adornments on my nose and long pointy ears, somewhat like the Orcs but my garment is quite simple as I never liked to identify with “real” Melchizedeks and their typical flare. Note that although I am gendered as “female” at this dimensional level, I do not sport mammalian features like breasts. My eyes are not like you would imagine. They are of a milky white color, slightly emanating an opalescent light, somewhat like the Night Elves. This specific type of vision feature allows me to monitor in many dimensions at the same time.

Karine speaks
I actually believe that this specific persona was born in 5D “recently” to serve in this specific time and age because although the new Kindrana looks a lot like the former from the story, I feel that she died a long time ago. The current Kindrana doesn’t have the skin discoloration and she clearly stated to me that she was “a descendant of Kindrana, honoring her name and sharing her memories but none of her genetic makeup”. I don’t really know how she was “conceived” or how she came to be. Some multidimensional dynamics are still unknown to me but I have to say I feel she was somewhat engineered. I am Her but she is also spanned across a bunch of simultaneous 3D incarnations and we are both part of the same vast oversoul (that I can also channel if needed, as well as other manifestations of me, for instance my former Arcturian guide and twin soul Assinidoine). I hope this makes some sense and can help others to conceive what being multidimensional feels like.

Although I have actively been working on the 5D grid overnight for a while to create and support the New Earth’s matrix and attempted closing, merging and mending of its multiple timelines, I came here incarnated in 3D to teach and promote compassion above all. Tolerance and acceptance for the renegades and the outcasts of this world and others. I don’t believe in wars and conflicts and I believe the only enemy is within. The part of us that fears the Other, denying others’ truth and right to exist. We see the Other as “less than” us, we depersonalize and blame. By doing so we disconnect ourselves from ourselves. By rejecting something or someone unpleasant we refuse to take a look at the hurting part or ourselves it mirrors and therefore create fragmentation and suffering. Acceptance of All is ultimately the acceptance of oneself and to truly love oneself requires to unconditionally love others. One does not precede the other. It’s a conjoined process we navigates in Self learning and progressive release of limiting beliefs and emotional blockages/baggage (Saṅkhāra). The truth is that we are all guilty of unspeakable horrors, in this life of another. Letting go of our karmic contracts is also freeing everybody we are bound to. Each of us has the ultimate power of healing the world.

In order to regain multidimensionality as well as our full psychic “powers” (enabled by the waking of our dormant DNA strands and activation of our light body) we img_4418need to heal that crystallized karma (past and present life emotional baggage). For this propose we (re)play different roles for each other, pushing evolution through challenging situations (To learn more read the DNA recoding update booklet and The mission remembered). Like I said numerous time before, it is my knowledge that recoding and regaining multidimensionality (psychic perceptions, communication with guides, intuition etc.) doesn’t require any kind of specific or harsh training. It is not either a born talents nor one reserved to the an elite. Those “gifts” simply come as a “side effect” of one continual effort in “clearing”.

I do not wish to serve anymore but I may still be able to help you through this process by challenging your beliefs or by triggering emotional shifts. I am now also perfectly happy to simply hold space for you to exist as you are, without any need to change anything, unconditionally accepting who and what you are, whether you know who and what you are, or who and what I am.

With all my love,
Karine (Kindrana)

note: this text came to me in a single stream of information, spanned on a few writing sessions but with barely no edits.

You came here to learn how to die

I need to confess to something very weird and probably very alien: I am uncomfortable when people express their fear to die. Lately I have been confronted to a dilemma when it comes to people fiercely dedicated to heal every physical condition they are facing although they are severely damaged or getting old. I mean, we CAN heal everything and I really believe it. But I don’t believe we necessarily SHOULD. Sometimes the value of a disease or a wound is to learn to transcend, push through and conquer. Sometimes it’s to accept we are mortal and that we need to let go of the body (or functions/parts of) and move on or transcend to a different state. Ouch.


We are all going to die. In fact, we all died many many times. From the perspective of someone who remembers dying countless agonizing death, chilling in the in between life states and forgetting everything to start all over again, it may seems like a given. But I understand that it’s not everybody’s reality. What hurts me the most I believe is when spiritual people are facing health challenges and refuse to accept it because they believe that their mastery of energy will cure them miraculously every single times. The true lesson lies in the fact that there are times for miracles and time to let go. The true challenge is that even these people who have a close relationship to spirit are scared shitless to die. And I don’t know how to “explain stuff” sometimes.

A while ago, a few years before all my crazy spiritual awakening happened, I went to a 10 days Vipassana meditation retreat. While over there we are not allowed to speak with the other students and every day you receive recorded instructions on how to go about your meditation practice, what to expect day to day and general useful insights. On the first or second night, I remember hearing the teacher tell us “you came here to learn how to die”. It really struck me and I wondered what the hell I was getting myself into but the following teachings were making enough sense that in stuck with it. All through the seminar we learn the value of Annicca, the law or impermanence, stating that everything in the universe is transient and bound to change. On the last day of the course, students are finally allowed to share on their insights. While relating my experience of the first night upon hearing the master stating how we came here to learn how to die, funny enough no one remembered hearing that at all. I guess that one bit was just for me.


After having experienced a spontaneous kundalini rising experience, an ego death, a few very interesting trips in the astral realm and many past life regressions/spontaneous recall, I can say that I no longer fear death. I see it as a “fuck I died again, I need to start this level all over” and no more as a “game over”. That being said, even if I know I have the infinite lives “cheat”, I am not in a rush to die, nor do I have a fun times jumping off of cliffs. Let’s face it, dying is no more comfortable then giving birth and I try to avoid it unless very necessary. On top of it, it’s nice to minimize pain, especially the emotional one caused to our loved ones. Also, just like I said, in order to come back and finish stuff or “have another shot at it” we need to go through traumatizing childhoods and awkward teenage years all over. I appreciate my body like my car. I want it to last as long as possible so I do basic maintenance. I picked a model and decorated it to my liking. Sometimes I neglect it for a while so I need to catch up and do a little extra work to get it back in shape. But when accident happens, sometimes we can invest (our energy) in repairs. Sometimes we will chose to fix the engine or replace a part but compromise on a scratch or on the color match. And then sometimes it’s time to say good bye, remember the good times and send it to the yard to be recycled (Wow, am I so poetically analogical).

Some of us have been led to believe that we will ascend with our bodies. I need to say, I believe it is possible but that will be a minority of us. I believe that many of us will let go of our current bodies in the next few years in order to birth the new Earth and here’s why: New bodies are genetically adapted to sustain the new frequencies were our old bodies (say the ones being born before more or less 1995) needs to evolve and change to adapt to it. The older the body, the harder it is. And trust me, is HURTS. Inflammation is the chronic symptom of a body trying to adapt/resisting to this rapidly changing vibrational environment.

Also, I believe there will still be some cataclysmic events coming our way that will lead to much dead and destruction. I don’t wish it, and I sure don’t want to prophesize it, but I need to say that I am still expecting it. For having lived the destructions of many planets before I can only hope the damage will be minimal but even not people die every day by the thousands due to wars, genocides, famine and diseases caused by our insane life styles and toxic environments. I’d rather “hold on to nothing” and not live in fear of not making it with this body.

Anywho, this is just my daily reflection on the transitoriness of flesh incarnation. It doesn’t make it any less awkward. Welcome to my head.


Why I refuse to polarize in the light (or the dark)

Because polarization juges and rejects. It cuts ourselves in halves. It finds a culprit and shame it. Instead of looking for true compassion and understanding, people polarized in the light become witches and demons hunters. They’ll open their arms conditionaly if you’re looking for salvation or redemption. They’ll welcome you as one of thembut not as one of you. “We all are one” gone to far is no smoother then a holocaust in disguise. I learned that “we are one” can become sterile, faceless and genderless. I chose instead to become “connected”. Connected to the human and galactic experiences, connected to the universe and to the Earth, the plants, the animals. I understand now that ascending doesn’t mean losing who you are (even if being who you are means losing who you THINK you are).

I see the parts and versions of me that did wrong, that hurt myself and others, that killed and condemned, that is hypocritical and weak, that is selfish and entitled. I chose to be REAL. By chosing this I give myself the right and power to be sorry, to sincerely apologize, to give freely, to love unconditionnaly, to improve and learn, to get better, emotionnaly richer and more interesting. I am not looking for absolution. I am not looking for salvation.


I walked many paths over countless lifetimes. I remember now. But i also know that I don’t need to feel guilty or shameful. I don’t need to “cut it out” and throw it away. Instead I can decide to recognize my rightful responsibility, actively integrate lessons and actually HEAL. I realize that when I reject other people’s experiences I actually reject myself because I litteraly walked miles in everybodies’ shoes. Being connected is the power of the healthy empath and therefore the way to express true compassion without taking on someone elses pain. I can see you, feel you, love you. I am NOT you. Not on this plane. We came here to experience polarity and individuality. To ascend on this plane means to fully know, express and integrate YOURSELF.

Angels and demons are both playing you. They are both pitfalls to make you seek powers outside of yourself, therefore creating evermore lessons. Because the universe and God is holographic, all the power and knowledge lies inside of you. In your field, your cells, your DNA. You just need to remember the language to access the library. (Believe me it’s not “that” hard and doesn’t require you to be someone special).

There is NO WAR between light and dark, good or bad, humans and reptilians. It’s all a perfectly orchastrated game we’re playing out with so much passion. Ascending is to recognize this, and stop acting out one part or another. It’s to find this perfect place of peace and balance where you can finally move on in a laugh. Not dissolve in the light.


Réflexion sur l’oppression

Nous vous invitons à l’empathie pour vos oppresseurs. Comprenez que, tout comme vous, ils répondent a leur propre conditionnement et que celui si peut être changé. Avec patience et tolérance. Nous sommes tous des enfants à l’école sur ce plan et même les enfants méchants ont besoin d’être aimés!!! En fait ils sont méchants car ils ne connaissent pas l’amour véritable et ceci prend un sens très littéral pour les reptiliens. Leur centre énergétique du cœur ne peut s’ouvrir dans leur corps tridimensionnel. Certaines âmes reptiliennes ont donc choisi l’incarnation humaine pour avoir la chance d’y expérimenter l’ensemble du spectre des émotions qui vous est propre. Mais comme nous arrivons amnésiques sur ce plan, ils ne se souviennent pas d’abord qu’il s’agisse de leur intention. Ils vont dans un premier temps reproduire les seuls comportements qu’ils connaissent. Domination, oppression, consommation.

En luttant contre une force extérieure, on l’encourage à doubler d’effort et on participe donc à la réalité qu’on souhaite éviter. La meilleure façon de maintenir une haute fréquence dans l’adversité est de d’abord se libérer soi-même. En limitant notre expérience de la peur (par exemple en nous exposant aux médias qui nous font juger l’expérience de l’autre et nous sentir menacés) on se retire de l’équation. On choisit de me pas choisir ni le « pour » ni le « contre ». L’oppresseur n’aura donc plus rien à oppresser et n’aura d’autre choix que de s’éveiller à une nouvelle réalité qu’il n’a même jamais envisagé.


Confession d’une overachiever (ou le pourquoi du comment, sans but particulier)

IMG_4141Pour n’importe qui ayant pris la peine de lire quelques lignes de mon journal, il est facile de voir que toute ma vie j’ai mené un combat plus ou moins intense avec moi-même. J’ai toujours eu le sentiment de ne jamais vraiment bien m’inclure nulle part, de ne pas avoir une place toute taillée. J’ai décidé de devenir une artiste du tatouage car c’était le meilleur choix de vie pour exprimer et justifier ma différence. J’avais besoin de me permettre et de permettre aux autres d’être qui ils sont, dans un lieu sans jugement, où nous avons tous notre place avec notre différence et je pense que j’ai bien accompli cela.

Mais les faits restent. Je n’ai jamais senti que je m’incluais parfaitement bien dans l’industrie du tatouage non plus. Je sens que mes valeurs, mes intérêts, mes motivations et ma façon de penser sont différents à plusieurs degrés de ceux de mes collègues tatoueurs et, alors que je peux passer incognito dans une pièce pleine de mes pairs dans une convention, je ne me sens toujours pas à ma place. J’ai aussi souvent l’impression que je ne mérite pas la reconnaissance que je récolte. Je souffre parfois du syndrome de l’imposteur et bien que je puisse techniquement utiliser une machine à tatouer et que j’ai réussi avec le temps à pondre certaines pièces dont je suis pas pire fière, je ne me sens pas comme une « vraie » artiste. Pas comme certains artistes que je vois travailler sur les réseaux sociaux à tous les jours.

Pour comprendre ce sentiment, il me faut faire un pas en arrière et contempler mon histoire avec détachement. Quand je considère mon développement artistique enfant, puis adolescente, puis étudiante au collège, je constate que j’ai toujours été une “designer”. J’ai étudié le design graphique à l’école et j’ai performé avec une grande facilité. Par conséquent, j’approche le tatouage comme j’approche la conception d’un logo ou d’un dépliant. Par culpabilité, j’ai presque complètement arrêté de dessiner par plaisir pour moi-même avec le temps. Je VOUDRAIS dessiner, mais étrangement tout le reste semble plus important : la comptabilité, le management, le ménage, les dessins des clients, m’occuper des petites et grosses choses de la vie. Maintenant je fais ce que je fais et j’essaye de ne pas me comparer.

Dans mon journal j’ai aussi parlé en long et en large de mes problèmes et solutions par rapport à ma culpabilité chronique et les blocages que cela me cause. J’y ai travaillé très fort pendant plusieurs année et je considère aujourd’hui que je suis presque libre de ces démons mais il semblerait que pas encore tout à fait.

Il m’a fallu tomber enceinte au mois de décembre 2013 et faire quelques réflexions sur le genre de modèle que je voulais être pour mon fils. J’ai réalisé qu’être tatoueuse ou artiste n’était tout simplement plus suffisant et me laissait avec un vide. J’ai commencé à réfléchir sur ce qui me manquait pour sentir que je mérite d’être où j’en suis et me sentir accomplie. Puis je suis tombé par hasard sur une citation qui a littéralement été le dernier clou dans le cercueil. « Le meilleur temps pour planter une graine est dix ans passé. Le deuxième meilleur moment est maintenant. » Étrangement, à ce moment-là, ça faisait exactement 10 ans que je tatouais. J’ai réalisé qu’il n’y a rien de plus important à ce point-là que d’explorer mon plein potentiel. J’ai pratiquement eu l’impression d’accoucher deux fois simultanément : d’un nouvel être et aussi de moi-même.

La nécessité de me tailler ma propre place est devenue ma priorité. Concrètement, j’ai commencé à me demander comment rejoindre et allier tous mes talents et toutes mes forces en un seul et ultime projet. Après 2 ans de ups and downs, la solution s’est finalement présentée. J’ai alors décidé de me dédier complètement à mon projet VisionArt. J’ai quitté RubyCherry Shop pour finalement prendre le temps et l’espace nécessaire pour moi-même. Dans le processus j’ai blessé des gens que j’aime et j’ai aussi eu beaucoup de peine. Mais au bout du compte, on est vraiment libre que lors ce qu’on réalise notre liberté de penser et d’imaginer. Avant, je regardais ce qui se présentait devant moi et tentait d’imaginer ce que je pouvais en faire. Maintenant j’imagine ce que j’aimerais voir se présenter puis le regarde se manifester sous mes yeux.

C’est ce genre de valeur que je souhaite transmettre à mon enfant : qu’il n’y a aucune raison d’attendre pour ses rêves et qu’il n’y a aucune limite à ce qu’on peut accomplir. Je veux que mon fils devienne la meilleure personne qu’il peut être pour lui-même et par conséquent faire du monde un endroit meilleur.

VisionArt est le projet d’un seul homme (une seule femme) et représente tout ce que j’ai dans le corps, dans le cœur et dans l’âme. Il s’agit de juste moi, sans les masques, un peu weird mais pas méchante, qui vous accueille chez moi “as you are”, et qui donne ce que j’ai à donner en toute simplicité et toute honnêteté.

Merci d’être encore là après tout ce temps et de continuer d’apprécier mon travail.

Karine (Ruby)



J’étais très fatiguée hier, prise avec un tas de merde personnelle et à me sentir coupable de ne pas faire mes devoirs le deuxième jour de mon petit contrat avec les Reptiliens. Voici ce qui est sorti.

Nous sommes ici ce soir pour te dire de ne pas avoir peur et de ne pas t’inquiéter. Tu es notre fille et nous sommes ici pour te soutenir et prendre soin de toi. Nous, les Reptiliens, sommes très conscients des rythmes. Dans nos vies tridimensionnelles nous sommes liés par divers rythmes organiques et l’on n’a pas d’autre choix que de s’y plier. En tant qu’êtres à sang froid, un de ces cycles évidents est celui du jour et de la nuit, mais, comme nous sommes des créatures de chair, nous chérissons et observons toutes sortes de rythmes organiques, certains plus subtils que d’autres. Nous sommes très connectés à notre corps et il est clairement intuitif pour nous de prendre soin de nos besoins physiques d’abord et avant tout. La spiritualité est un concept abstrait qui ne nous vient pas facilement vu notre nature et seuls les individus particulièrement imaginatifs prennent en charge l’organisation de cultes religieux ou de choses similaires.


Notre évolution spirituelle est d’une nature complètement différente. Elle a lieu quand un individu, en réponse à un événement ou un autre, ouvre soudainement son centre énergétique du cœur (il semblerait qu’ils n’aiment pas le mot chakra, je ne sais pas pourquoi et je ne peux pas tout à fait saisir le mot qu’ils utilisent – Gestalt du cœur? – donc j’utiliserai centre énergétique du cœur. Il semble que cela comprenne une zone plus large incluant la gorge) et commence à découvrir un éventail d’émotions totalement étrangères à ses semblables. Ces émotions relèvent de la compassion et de l’empathie, très rare chez notre espèce car notre centre du cœur est naturellement atrophié. (Nous parlerons plus avant de ce sujet dans une autre discussion). Ce processus de reconnexion intérieure est la façon dont nous aimerions explorer l’ascension avec vous. Nous pensons que l’étape la plus importante pour élever votre fréquence personnelle et vous lancer  sur le chemin de votre propre ascension personnelle est premièrement de vous rappeler qui vous êtes, puis de manifester la pleine expression de vous-même. Ce processus nécessite en fait très peu “travail”, mais simplement d’être attentif à vous-même. L’éveil à conscience collective n’est pas quelque chose qui se recherche à l’extérieur mais bien quelque chose qui vous arrive spontanément. Votre conviction que vous avez besoin de méditer avec diligence de manière spécifique ou de manger un certain régime ou pratiquer différents rituels est en fait très limitatif et pourrait même ralentir votre processus de reconnexion car cela place votre focus à l’extérieur de vous-même.


Dans les prochains temps nous aimerions vous présenter de courtes capsules compréhensives pour expliquer dans nos mots ce en quoi consiste l’ascension, ce qu’est une perspective multidimensionnelle et ce que cela peut signifier pour VOUS en tant qu’individu et ainsi possiblement vous permettre de vous reconnecter de façon consciente, percevoir et expérimenter ces réalités alternatives pour vous-même.  Nous comprenons qu’il y a beaucoup de confusion ces derniers temps en particulier en ce qui a trait au vocabulaire et les attentes générales et nous aimerions présenter les choses d’une façon très simple, rationnelle et instinctive. Nous voulons expliquer de manière efficace et fournir des trucs et astuces qui pourraient vous faire “cliquer” sur différents concepts et ainsi vous permettre d’avancer plus efficacement.

Avec notre d’amour

Les Reptiliens de la Fédération Galactique


I was very tired yesterday, dealing with a bunch of personal crap and feeling guilty for not doing my homework on the second day of my little contract with the Reptilians. Here’s what came through.

We are here tonight to tell you not to fear and not to worry. You are our daughter and we are here to nurture and take care of you. We reptilians are very aware of rhythms. In our 3d lives we are bound by various organic rhythms and we have no choice but to abide by it. Being cold blooded, one of these obvious cycles is the one of day and night but, as we are creatures of flesh, we also cherish and observe all sorts of organic rhythms, some more subtle than others. We are very connected to our bodies and it’s just plainly intuitive for us to take care of our physical needs first and foremost. Spirituality and abstract concepts doesn’t come easily to our kind and only especially imaginative individuals would take charge of organizing religious cults and such things.


Our spiritual evolution is from a completely different nature. It takes place when an individual, triggered by an event or another, suddenly opens their heart center (somehow they dislike the word chakra I don’t know why and I cannot quite make the word they use – Heart Gestalt? – so ill use heart center. It’s actually encompassing a larger area, including the throat) and starts discovering an array of emotions completely alien to their fellows. The emotions are of compassion and empathy, a very rare emotion among our kind as our heart center is naturally hindered. (We’ll talk more about this in another installment) This process of inner reconnection is how we would like to explore ascension with you. We believe that the most important step in raising your personal frequency and then set yourself on the path of your own personal ascension is first of all by remembering who you are, then come into the full expression of yourself. This process actually require very little “work” but being attentive to yourself. Unity Consciousness is not something you can actively seek OUT. It is something that just eventually happens to you. Hard. Your belief that you need to meditate diligently in specific ways or eat a certain diet or practice different rituals is actually very limiting and could actually slow down your reconnective process as it set your focal point outside of you.


Over the next little while, we would like to present you with short comprehensive chronicles that will explain to you what ascension and multidimensional perspective is in our words and what it actually means for YOU as a person and hopefully how to consciously reconnect, perceive and experience these alternate realities for yourself. We understand there is much confusion lately especially with vocabulary and expectations and we would like to present things in a very simple, rational and instinctive fashion. We want to explain things efficiently, and provide with simple tips and tricks that could potentially make you “click” on different concepts and move you forward.

With much love

The Reptilians or the Galactic Federation